I’m burned out.
I’ve been working on one project for over two years now, and I’m over it. I have a hard time getting motivated, and find it difficult to care about what I’m doing. I look at my inbox with dread every morning.
As I realize this, I also identify that I hate not caring. I love what is do, and I never think of design as “just a job”… Correct that. Until recently, I hadn’t.
I don’t look at the two years I have spent on this project as wasted… But I also don’t look at it as successful, either. I have made great friends and done good work but the project has drained me, caused personal problems for myself and my family and resulted in a lot of stress and, frankly, unhappiness.
It wasn’t worth it.
It’s time for a change.
So, as I look at the past as prologue, I look forward. To a break over the holidays, and then a quick two-month wrap up to my work on this project. Then…
Then what?
I’m in a moment of transition, methinks. I’m 42 years old, and have had many successes. I’ve achieved much… But I still aspire to achieve much more. There’s things I’ve started thinking about, things that can radically changed life if I commit to them.
Changes. Potentially big… And risky… Ones. The only question is whether I will step out of my comfort zone and make such changes happen. And yes, I’m being intentionally vague.
Stay tuned.